I remember when we lived in Fort Worth...Chris and I were talking about our lives and I said that we hadn't had any trials for awhile. We were out of school, Chris had a good job, Ella was an easy baby, and so on.
(As an aside..I would like to take this time to warn all to never ever EVER say that you haven't had any trials for awhile because that means they are on their way with vengeance!!)
Soon after this conversation we felt that Chris should quit his job to start his own business, then move to Ohio, and why not add applying for MBA School and have another baby on top. None of this worked out the way we were thinking. Chris owning his own business was stressful and not as lucrative as we dreamed. Our housing arrangements in Ohio fell through and we ended up moving in with family. Applying and visiting schools was expensive and meant another move. And the dream of another baby turned into 2 surgeries and a year of being tested for cancer.
Pursing an MBA brought us to Rochester, and we got pregnant with our second (which led to my being extremely ill). The adjustment to student life hasn't been easy (basically no Chris and seriously no money). It seemed like it was time for things to get easy again but they just weren't.
I have heard it said that being poor makes you humble. Well, I am not sure how much humility we have gained over the last 5 months, not to mention that it certainly isn't humble to say we are so humble now...but I think a lack of money has taught us something else. It has helped us to see the hand of God more than any other time in our life. And here are just some of the ways that we have seen God's hand during this time:
1. While I was so sick that I couldn't get up off the couch, Chris had to do way more than one person ever should or maybe even could do. He was bleeding himself dry and feeling like he wasn't doing anything well. We were worried that he wouldn't be able to do well in school with all the added stress and yet, somehow the work he could do was always enough. Even without being able to put in the time his classmates were, he was able to achieve the grades he wanted. We are sure that God had a hand in it!
2. It seemed like within one week Ella went from having plenty of clothes to barely any (I guess those vitamins are working!). We didn't even have pajamas for her. We kept looking and looking at the budget knowing that we would have to buy her clothes and at the same time knowing that we couldn't afford them. Amazingly, her cousin seemed to have more clothes than she needed and her mother decided to call and offer them to us and the problem was fixed. We are positive that the Lord heard this prayer and came to our rescue!
3. With a baby on the way, I somehow seem to be outgrowing all my clothes. I didn't have any maternity clothes and was starting to get worried as my pants became tighter and tighter with a budget that was tighter than ever. I remember the day that I was down to one last pair of pants that would fit. I told Chris that I thought we would have to buy something but alas we could not afford it (this is a common theme). That very day a friend randomly asked if I wanted to use her maternity clothes. She gave me a whole box and all was well. We are sure that God was aware of our little family that day!
4. The winters here are supposed to be something else so we felt that Ella needed a warm coat and snowsuit. Trying to buy her one seemed impossible but having her go without wouldn't work either. I am not sure how a family with 5 kids - 2 the same size as Ella - and one more on the way has extra anything but somehow they did. They sent Ella a snowsuit and warm winter coat with matching boots and they even have princesses on them. Yet another example that the Savior loves us!
5. I have a mother who was willing to help in ways that I can not express. She has offered (and given!) of her whole person. It is a loving God who blesses me with such an example of womanhood.
6. And last, but I am certain will not be the last time the Savior helps us...
As we all know, it is Christmas and we have a little girl who is so excited for Santa to bring her presents. And yet we were struggling to even pay the bills. As parents it was so devastating to realize that we couldn't buy our little girl any gifts. We were thinking and thinking over what we could make so that she still would have something to open but it was hard knowing that we couldn't buy her any toys.
I don't know how but somehow packages just keep showing up on our door full of presents for Ella. People say they just see something at the store that makes them think of her and so they send it. Family who wouldn't usually buy for her because there are so many nieces and nephews to buy for have sent her boxes full of presents. I know that they are sending them to Ella but it is funny to me because I think these gifts are more for Chris and I. (Aside: she has enough presents now to be considered spoiled.)
And so I leave this year amazed at the safety that lies in God's hand. I am amazed at how he always blesses us at the very moment when there is no other answer but Him. And I am amazed at our Christmas Miracles!!!
3 comments:
Thank you Kira and Chris for putting it all in perspective. Thank you for sharing your humbling experiences and reminding us all that we are so very blessed every day in ways we are unaware. There are angels among us - sensitive to the spirit - I want to be one of them. We love you and miss you. Can't wait to see you!
That's really neat that things keep pouring in for y'all. Living this student life really sucks at times but you just do what you can do and move forward. Just remember, there are people going through the same crapola you are, so if you ever want to vent, just call!
Thank You for such an uplifting Christmas Update!! How wonderful that through such a tough time, you can see the hand of he Lord in your lives!!
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