Trials Help You Grow

So, right now I am wishing that Chris never put up the post about being pregnant.

I had my first doctor's appointment last week and found out that there was no baby. My body thought I was pregnant but the baby never formed. I had a D&C on Monday to care of the placenta and am feeling really good. It is nice not to be nauseous anymore and to be able to enjoy food again. I am still waiting for Chris to take me out for steak.

I am grateful for all the things to learn when going through a trial. I learned more than ever how much I need family. They had to do a lot of the care for Ella this month and this also helped Ella gain a close relationship with them. I also learned that sometimes there seems to be no reason for going through a trial except to gain more understanding of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. It is amazing what He went through for me and how He helps me though each hard moment. I also learned again and again that it is His will be done and not mine. Hopefully now I am more meek and submissive. And maybe more than anything I learned to be more grateful for Ella than I would have ever been. I hold her a little closer now and appreciate each new thing she learns a little more. Like tonight for example, she said her first prayer. I couldn't understand a single word except "A-Me"(Amen) but there she was folding her arms and bowing her head while babbling on a on. What a special moment.